From reading I've seen that us kids have a a mask that we have to put on to be a part of the dysfunctional family.

These masks might include:

• The Hero: someone whose constantly achieving to make up for the shortcomings in the family. They're the "good son" or "good girl."
• The Caretaker: the person whose job it is to take care of everyone.
• The Scapegoat: the person who causes a lot of trouble in a bid for attention

I believe I took on or take on the Caretaker .....

Is it impossible-Being Yourself If You're a Child Abuse Survivor?

Some kids go home and they won't be happy, because they'll be going home to a dysfunctional and abusive family. Their family will pass along messages of shame such as "you're not good enough unless you become...(you fill in the blank)" or "good boys and girls must always be happy." This family may even physically or sexually abuse them, and then compound this abuse by keeping it secret and encouraging the kids not to talk about it.